Archive for May, 2006

Cultural Differences

Posted in Food on May 16th, 2006 by Matt Chan – 1 Comment

Our family sits in a new restaurant, one we had never been to before. It was originally located in Chinatown under the name New Shanghai; now it’s located in a suburb called Wellesley just off of Route 9 bearing the name CK Shanghai. Aside from the employees, there are almost no other Chinese people. The ones I saw earlier have left, and the mass of people at the entrance continue to grow due to lack of waiting space.

Employees bustle about delivering dishes to tables, taking orders, retrieving empty plates, and refilling glasses. I take a sip of my water while eyeing the environment. The yellow wallpaper, the hanging ceiling lights, and the small bar make me feel like I’m in a different restaurant. The decor doesn’t feel typical for a Chinese restaurant, at least not the ones I’ve been to, but the random Oriental adornments around the wall make up for the contemporary look.

I place my napkin on my lap, and set my chopsticks in hand. The first set of dishes arrive at our table. My family digs in to the food. Chopsticks reach across the table. Plates are passed to help gather food into a meal. A communal sharing of what lies before us. This is the way Chinese people eat. This is what “family style” eating is.

I make a quick glance to the neighbouring tables. The people on my left are talking about colleges with some mention of MIT and patents. The two tables to our right keep staring in our direction. I don’t know if they’re staring at us, our food, or at something else. Paranoia sets in. I keep my head focused on my plate to ignore them, yet all I can think about is how delicious the food is.

More dishes arrive. People at the big, round table on our right continue to look at us with an alien expression. To me, the way everyone else is eating is foreign. They are ordering single dishes as their own. Eating real Chinese cuisine isn’t like the single-serving combo that you get at the small, dirty-looking, local place on the corner where you go when you’re too lazy to cook. To them, the way we eat is different despite the fact that this is normal, instinctive, and second nature for us.

That’s not to say that people couldn’t order their own dishes like they typically would in other restaurants. They just don’t get any real perspective of what Chinese food culture is like. I’m not saying it’s bad that non-Chinese people are eating Chinese food. Everyone is just oblivious as to how Chinese people eat, but restaurants won’t tell you that. My point is just that food is more than just what’s on the table in front of you. It’s how you eat it that also counts.

Watching Writing Change

Posted in Writings on May 13th, 2006 by Matt Chan – Be the first to comment

When I was attending Boston Latin School for my education from 7th grade to 12th grade, there was a literary magazine, called The Register, that would come out twice a year, once during the winter season and again later in the spring. I have a little collection of all the ones published when I was there less the first one available to me. I did not pick that one up because I didn’t know know what it is and didn’t have much interest in it. That day I borrowed one from a friend to pass the time on the bus ride home. The Register contained all different sorts of short stories, prose, poems, and art. I enjoyed it greatly. I then changed my mind about The Register. I looked forward to their releases every year to see the things that people were writing.

When 9th grade rolled around, I tried my hand at “writing” poems. I had no formal or informal training on how to write anything except for five-paragraph essays for my English classes. Nevertheless, I gave it a try. After playing with words, stumbling with structures and breaks, figuring where to put what lines where to convey what I wanted, after pages and pages of writing and scribbling and arrows, I wrote something that was five lines long. It was crap (not that I really thought so at the time). The feel of the “poem” was probably more overgeneralized than cryptic, and it didn’t really have that much meaning underneath the words. My “poem” was published on its own page with a fading greyscale picture underneath it. I was happy that it was published so I kept trying to write more things and seeing what came out.

I abandoned my little bound notebook that I used to brainstorm and piece things together out of phrases and words. Anything that poured out of my mind would be written down and revised and revised. I submitted a whole bunch of things (a lot of them really bad too). Most were rejected, but there were always a few that managed to get in. I also noticed that as I got older, the worse the writing in The Register seemed to get. My writing was never good to begin with, but all the pieces in The Register revolved around some teen angst issue. You read one of them, and you’ve read them all. I wanted to change things, so in my junior year I joined the editorial staff.

Joining the editorial staff, as it turned out, proved to be a lackluster effort. I was among the small group of people that had to read over 200 submissions and rate each one on a scale of 1-5. There were very few submissions that I liked. Nearly everything I read was just the same thing over and over. There were only a few that were “different” that broke up the monotony of reading each piece. I was on the staff for only two or three publications. The whole process was just very tiring and tedious. The worst part of it was that every single submission was crap. Everything was awful. The “best” ones were published, and the magazine was still crap.

There was one particular one I recall very well that was (very well) written by a friend. It was the top-rated one, and it definitely deserved to be. The only reason why it wasn’t published was because it contained a school stabbing, and that didn’t go over so well with the faculty advisor. One of my other friends reads and writes a lot; he knows what makes good writing and what doesn’t. He knows techniques, words, structure. He’s submitted crappy things that have made it to publication that were intended as jokes or mockeries of the literary magazine. He wrote a poem for an English assignment five minutes before class and ended up submitting it. It was published along with corresponding artwork to help convey the meaning (which also really bothers me too when the editors do that). I even submitted a stupid rhyming poem (cryptically about video games and their evolution and future), and it made to publication. That was for the last issue when I was in high school, at which point I was glad I had quit the staff.

I understood what kind of “standards” these people were looking for and the stuff that everyone was submitting. I didn’t want any part of it. Things were originally creative when I was in the seventh grade. They were imaginative. They were worlds that people had created and shared with the rest of the world. Eventually, subject matter evolved into smaller worlds. The nature of these pieces became more personal, more introverted, more mundane, less creative, and a lot less imaginative. These people needed to learn how to write. It was as if they were basing their writing on what was previously published in The Register (which was deemed to be good). Rather taking courses or finding resources on how to write, everyone would just imitate what was written before. It became like a pandemic disease because everyone was doing it. The only writing class that is offered at Boston Latin School is the Advanced Placement English Language and Composition. Other than that, these kids are on their own, and they won’t get far if all they’re looking at are recently published Register editions.

My sister has even made submissions to The Register as a joke. She wrote about a thing about an egg and her physics project in about five minutes and submitted it at the last minute. Lo and behold, it was published. She also tells me that it’s only getting worse and worse. People are either very teen angst in their pieces, or they just write about their grandma and her cooking. It’s all extremely overdone and tired. The editorial staff might as well just start taking things off of people’s LiveJournals. The school newspaper has been just the same. The writing was good writing my first year, but totally plunged down the toilet drain when I graduated.

The point is that people need to learn how to write, and write well. That isn’t to say that they shouldn’t give up writing altogether. Improvement doesn’t come like a pack of instant Ramen noodles. It takes time, learning, critiquing, mentoring, and patience before someone develops skill, style, and understanding.

Blogging

Posted in Writings on May 3rd, 2006 by Matt Chan – Be the first to comment

Why do I blog? My answer to that question is because I believe I have something to say. And not just any old thing. I’d like to say something with some value behind it and to leave something for potential readers to think about further. So that leaves me with the following question: What do I blog about?

Back in the year 2000, before blogging ever took off, I kept my personal thoughts and writings at Open Diary. As a way of mocking Internet diaries (especially the ones on Open Diary), I had started out keeping a fictional diary for my made-up, semi-superhero character, Pop Tart Kid. After my stint, I lay dormant for a while but still read up on friends’ diaries. In the beginning of 2002, I decided to start another diary and really open myself up to the world (and really to my friends). I kept this one for a while from the latter half of my senior year in high school until close to the end of my first year in college. I decided to switch to Xanga. It had a nicer interface and just a better feel since Open Diary seemed to be hurting from lack of funds (they split off into free and pay versions) and server (bandwidth) issues. I decided to not use LiveJournal since Xanga had a better community vibe to it.

Eventually, I ended up creating my own WordPress blog on a friend’s site. I imported most of my old Xanga entries. Blogging on my own site was fine for a while. Then the interval between posts became longer and longer, and the creative well dried up altogether. Then came this blog shortly after I stopped blogging at my old site. I wanted to start fresh and anew, wipe the slate clean, and create my own personalized look-and-feel to my blog.

And this leads me back to the reason for blogging: I want to say something profound (in some way whether big or small). I wanted to shed the teen angst and grow up. This comes from years of chronicling the trivial events in my life even going all the way back to the 8th grade when I started keeping a notebook of near-daily logs of life. Reading through a lot of my old entries shows how insignificant some things were and how they don’t matter anymore. I was different back then — young and stupid. I want to show maturation in my posts; perhaps this is why I “recycle” my persona in my evolution of blogging.

So then this brings me back to the same question: What do I blog about? I don’t want to blog about the silly, insignificant things that won’t matter later on. My life isn’t currently exciting enough to blog about. I could blog about work though I’ve heard you can get fired for that so I’d rather not do that. And I don’t have much of an audience to cater my blog to. This blog isn’t for them; it’s for me. So now I’m stuck at the intermittent posts and deciding what criteria an event should meet in order for it to be blogged.

I guess I feel the need to future-proof myself and not look like an idiot (to myself). Maybe I should blog the little things in life, things in the moment, and look back on them in the future in a continuous timeline rather than discrete instances. It’s amazing to see how much I’ve changed but have fundamentally remained the same all this time. I probably shouldn’t feel ashamed of myself for what I was because I wouldn’t be who I am now without looking back and reflecting on my evolution.